Project 365: Jan
these are a collection of memories drawn from my life.disclaimer: i'm in no way a photographer. but i'm learning. :)
Thank you!
an epilogue
thank you to all the followers, non-followers, and people who just took a glimpse of my project (cause i know some of you don’t have a tumblr and happened to stumble on this). its been such a great year and i’m glad i have something to look back on. without you truly inspiring me to keep going, i might have never finished. like my final post, i’m attached to this project and i think i’ll start a new one. maybe this year maybe next. we’ll just see where it goes. everything in this project if from me and i’ll leave it to you to take a glimpse in hopes it’ll share who i am, even just a little light on who i am. its been truly a memorable year. and it should since i have pictures to reflect and smile on. :) so here’s to 2010. thank you.
Day 365: The End.
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whooo! what a day! what a year!!! this is the end of the road for this project and i am so damn happy and proud that i stuck to it. in the beginning of this project, i thought i would miss a day (i became paranoid when i thought i missed a day) and it was always the case in the first couple weeks that i thought i couldn’t do this everyday. that i couldn’t bring myself to go and take a picture. as simple as it is, with the busy schedule i had, it was easy to forget. but thank goodness i had my camera with me everyday. sometimes i would be so busy that i’ll remember late at night, the latest being 1158 and i’d take a picture of whatever. i didn’t care of the quality, just as long as i had a picture. but as weeks turned to months into the project, it became routine to take pictures. i later upgraded my canon powershot to a canon t1i DSLR. i was pretty happy with that. and i became more knowledgeable about photography.
looking back, i can say that i have matured and i have learned considerably about life, though i know there are infinite things i still have to learn and through this project. and through this project, i have learned a lot about myself, which is amazing cause i thought i wouldn’t get much from this project but something to do through out the year. who knew i would become so attached and learn a lot about myself. haha.
i guess my advice for anyone wanting to do a project 365 of their own is to always bring a camera with you. no matter what kind it is: camera phone, point and shoot, or a DSLR! its essential that you always have one with you cause you’ll never know when you find yourself with a perfect scenery. it’ll be hard in the beginning but it’ll be fun as you go through it.
oh man, looking back at the pictures, i’m so amazed at all the things i’ve done. without this project, i bet i wouldn’t be able to recall a lot of those memories. this is a gift in itself. and thinking about doing another project is highly likely. i really want to continue this project and be able to continue looking back at my life. who knows, maybe i’ll keep doing this until the very end of my life so that i can share my life through pictures with my kids, grand kids, great grand kids, friends, etc. and maybe i’ll print them out and put them in an album. haha.
but anyway, cheers to a new year and cheers to myself for being able to complete this project that i’ve grown really attached to. i don’t think i can stop taking pictures. haha. i encourage everyone to try it out. DO IT DO IT DO IT!
Day 364: I Need A Hero.
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so i’m praying that i can get saturday and sunday of next week off cause i desperately want to audition for breed. i’m gonna start asking people if they can cover my shift or if i can do double on another day or something. man, its tough to balance work and doing what you want to do. there’s hardly enough time! :( i wish i had a hero that can make things work out the way you want. but i guess, you have to be your own hero sometimes. you can’t always rely on others to get things done for you. ughh. i seriously want to audition! i just hope one of my loving co-workers will see how much i love dancing that they’ll let me. :) i just hope.
anyway, the new years is right around the corner. i’m going to embrace it and hope for a better year. this year was good, though. had a lot of memories and a lot of life changing events. looking back, i could say i wish i could’ve done that or could’ve done this differently, but i am happy with how things worked out. life has taught me countless lessons and i think i’ve matured considerably from the beginning of this year. hope everybody had a good year as well. party it up on new years! yay!
Day 363: Sticker Happy
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my lady boss at AE is going to be so pissed when i give her a letter about my availability for next week. ughh, i just feel so bad and scared for giving it to her last minute. not my fault. Cha for tea surprised me with the new schedule. and i feel like i’m the one giving them problems all the time! i feel so bad. :(
anyway, with that aside, i decided to take a picture of the stickers i collected over the year. i’m not much of a sticker enthusiast but with the stickers i have collected, they all have significant sentimental values to them. THE HUNDREDS sticker was from my first the hundreds purchase. umm…not so sentimental. ok, what about the RAD IS RAD sticker? uhh…took it while passing their booth on campus during welcome week with CADC. so that has some sentimental value. arghh…ok ok what about that NAHT and A sticker. i seriously don’t know what they stand for. it was at a car show. but i’m not even into cars… alright, fine, here we go! the I <3 BOBA sticker! this was when me and sarah went out one night to grab some boba and guppy’s. its always nice having dinner with sarah. we just talk about what we’re going through and its pretty chill when we hang out. i see her as a sister or something similar. i think we’ve grown pretty close over the year. especially towards the end of kappa year. the HEIST sticker is a sticker of the clothing line that sponsored us and made our graphics on our costumes for CADC. i have so many HEIST shirts and HEIST emblem shirts. they remind me of iota year. they helped us out for our gold set! my very first vibe set. the I AM A NINJA is from steppie’s clothing line. steppie is my “big sister” and i have come to trust her a lot with talks about everyday life. i feel like i can always go to her when i need advice on anything. she’s so wise and has so much good advice to share. the MAXT OUT sticker is the sticker i took on my first maxt out competition i ever competed in. it was also the first time i was ever invited to do a project. in the end of the competition, we won first in our division, which was the cherry to all the hard work we put into the set! the MOVEMENT LIFESTYLE sticker was from encore! not only was it it kallusive’s debut dance competition, it was also the first time CADC staffed the event. i had so much fun talking to all the teams and other staff members during the competition. it really broadened my dance network, a lot! and finally, the TUMBLR sticker. geraldine gave it to me. i asked her, “Are you hosting a tumblr meet up?!?” she said no and that she only requested it. this was during christmas lunch with the family and cousins! it was the first time in 4+ months that i had the chance to be with family. yeah…those are the sticker collection. some weren’t as sentimental as i thought. but the ones that really had value reminds me of the times i had this past year! maybe i’ll start an actual sticker collection after this project is over. :D
Day 362: What???
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holy shizznitz! 3 days left till i’m done with this project?!? no freaking way!
anyhow, i was at the top of the parking structure, having my lunch when i noticed the mountains in the distance covered with snow. i think this was the first time this season i saw snow. and i feel it’ll be the last time i’ll see the snow for the winter. i’ve never really enjoyed the snow. wish it snowed here in irvine. oh well. maybe i’ll head over to big bear sometime. anybody wanna come? :D
the new year is almost here and i’m excited to see what 2011 has in store for me. i hope it involves a new job, not worrying about money, more traveling, and more fun! :D
Day 361: Work work work. Yes, my lord?
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haha. if you don’t know where my title is for today is from, then good for you, you have a life. lol jk. being around friends from back home, i was constantly in the background watching them play their World of Warcraft. i’d either be flipping through channels, looking through youtube videos, or attempting to play WoW but never really getting into it. don’t get me wrong, the times i have tried it, it was pretty fun, i guess. but i don’t know if that thing is for me. anyway, had work all day today! from 12pm to 12am. 12 hour work day. that’s not good for my sanity. though, i have gotten used to these sporadic and long work days, it does take a toll on my mentality. oh well. do what i got to do to earn those greens. *sigh. sometimes i wish i won the lottery. that $20,000,000,000 jackpot or something. that would take care of the work. i’d buy my parents 5 new houses: 1 in the US, 1 in Europe, 1 in Asia, 1 in Latin America, and 1 in Africa. then i would pay for my brother’s college tuition, pay for the cars i’ll give away, and pay for a life time vacation. haha i don’t know.
Day 360: Over Yonder.
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back in irvine. i had to drive at 2am in the morning cause i had a 10am shift at cha for tea. -____- i wish my holiday vacation was longer. but can’t really do that since i really need the money. it was ok though because afterwards, i had to head over to AE to work the night shift. it was pretty fun. i love working with my co-workers. well, some of them. oops (sorry for the ones i don’t really like working with :p ) jk. they’re all fun, sometimes. but i saw a really tall christmas tree in the middle of the courtyard on the walk to work. i thought i’d take a picture of it. i knew there would still be a lot of people in the mall for those super late christmas gift shoppers. -___- and you ask why people are so angry trying to frantically look for a size. should’ve went shopping earlier.
Day 359: A Family Past Time.
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its christmas day and i was at my cousin’s house for lunch. its always a tradition. every holiday celebration, we would head over to one of my cousin’s or my house for lunch. and it felt great finally being home to be with family. while the older people were gambling, us “kids” (though we’re not kids anymore) were just sitting around the living room just chillin and talking and just having fun like we always do when we get together. i feel a little bad cause usually i’d be the only one missing since i’m in irvine all the time. that’s why this christmas was extra special since i missed out on all the fun stuff during thanksgiving. :) family really hits the heart with their presence and FREE FOOD! :D
Day 358: Merry Christmas To All.
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oh boy. i feel like i was eating all day during christmas! but it feels so good to finally unwind and be with family. eating all the homemade filipino and american food was good to my stomach, heart, and mind! hahaha. i love the holidays. especially when spending it with family. anyway, went to my cousin’s house to celebrate christmas. but we did something pretty different this year. we played capture the flag with our nerf guns. it was pretty fun! haha. my team lost by one point though. next year we’ll definitely win. haha. merry christmas everybody! i hope you guys received good gifts and great blessings and got fat!
Day 357: The Tragedy That is Keys.
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what a long but great day! had work from 10 in the morning to 3pm. hung out with san for a while and then headed back to work at 645 to 11. phew! what a day! :) but tonight was so retarded. i lost my keys with the pink heart carbine for a good hour. and i was so damn frustrated and tired and i just wanted it to appear in my hands! i looked everywhere but finally found it between the couch. -____- gahhh! oh well happy holidays and goodnight! :)
Day 356: Perfect.
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everyone wants to have the perfect body. the body they’ve always wanted. the body they see on tv. the body that turn heads. and they buy into the false advertisement that the body they want is a pill, a self exercising belt, a nearly impossible diet, etc. a body like that can’t be attained so easily, i believe. but i think people should accept themselves more. see that they are beautiful or handsome in their own way. people let the media brainwash them into believing that how people look on tv: muscular, slender, tall, a small waist and big chest is the only way to attract. and i’ll admit, i’ve been brainwashed to believe that. but i’ve come to terms with my appearance. i don’t mind as much as i used to. of course, i’m not going to just let myself go. i’ll work out, eat healthy, and do so aerobics when i get the chance but i wont go through buying those unnecessary merchandise that infomercials put out. nope. i’m going to eat what i want, when i want. :)
Day 355: SoCal Drivers and Rain.
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souther california drivers and rain is equivalent to water and oil, they just don’t mix very well. its kind of ridiculous how bad socal drivers are. i’m from central cali (not exactly the bay but at least we can handle the rain) and it really does humor me when drivers from down south of cali start freaking out when it starts to rain. not even when its like a hurricane like how it is right now, but even when its just droplets. for some odd reasons, they like swerving into other cars. i’m like, ‘wth is your problem? just stay in control and don’t panic.’ but i guess the luxury of mostly having sunny and clear weather is something accustomed and the turbulent rainy weather is like the end of the world for socal drivers. just this past week, the freeway has been routinely put on a stop because of multiple accidents on the freeway. i think i counted about 5 or 6 the whole week? please, if you need to go slower, then go slower. just don’t panic and think you’re going to skid off the face of the earth. that’s just illogical. but it is nice listening to the rain hit my window while i drive. pretty calm and soothing. :)
Day 354: Seasoning.
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i can’t wait to be home to be with family, homemade food, and filipino holiday parties! YAY!
Day 353: A Recurring Life Quote.
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a respectable teacher from high school once told me that, “Pain is weakness leaving the body.” at first i didn’t really understand. he told me to think about it when i got home from school. it was probably sophomore or junior year when mr. watson had said that to me. back then, i was struggling to find out what i was doing with life and it confused me on how i should live it. days would go by and i’d feel the pain of school expectation, social expectations, and personal expectations. it was like i was being stretched out from all sides. different expectations clashed and i didn’t understand how to handle things. i decided to think about these pains and the quote mr. watson had told me.
So, what’d you come up with?
he asked. i told him that the pain you experience now wont be as harsh to you the next time you feel that sort of pain because you have learned from it and gained experience, eventually making you stronger in the future (or something like that). we went on furthering our conversation during passing period.
anyway, i’ve had a lot of mentors and teachers that i look up to through out my life: mr. morrison (music teacher), sir dan kang (martial arts instructor), zeta class (CADC/dance), sou (cha manager), and they’ve all taught me that with pain comes strength. and its true. if it weren’t for them, i would have given up on a lot of things. but i was taught to be better than that. i was taught to do my best and to stick it through. so i thank them for making me the person i am today. for shaping my attitude. for molding me and still letting me be myself. :)
Day 352: Life Vacation.
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it was a good day even though i was late to work today. good thing jen was chill about it. but honestly, working today wasn’t so bad. sure, standing around for about 6 hours wasn’t the business but i had to do what i had to do to earn my keep. it was pretty crazy since a whole bunch of shoppers came to buy gifts for Christmas. i was glad i finally got out of there at around 5 though. when i finally got out, i decided to walk around the mall to see what was going on. it was pretty packed. there were families near the carousel and the art station. i thought it was a pretty happy atmosphere that i wanted to take a picture of it. the kids were smiling while the parents were sitting back just watching their kids having fun. i sometimes wish i had a little kid of my own so i can do the things parents do with their kids.
after work, i came home to chill for a bit before heading to alex’s place so that we could head over to boiling crab for richard’s birthday! it was good to hang out with friends. i felt so happy and relaxed now that i can just chill and have fun. boiling crab was great! had a pound of shrimp with ‘the whole shabang!’, sausages, corn, rice, and a bottle of corona! i was full by the time we finished. afterwards, we headed over to alex’s place again to just chill and drink. justin and crystal, richard’s friends, also came by to hang out. then tina tsai and ali, tina’s boy friend, came later to chill with us. it was a pretty good time and i loved the company we had: hillary, rwang, becca, chris, elaine, heidi, justin and crystal, and tina and ali. i need more days like this. welps, time to head to bed so i can wake up at 8 tomorrow morning. -____-
